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name: Sokaris Valerian
nickname: 'Karis
age: 19
dob: unknown/he doesn't remember
special abilities: creation of illusions
occupation: student
languages: English, Latin ((yes, he actually bothered to learn it))
religion: ecletic pagan

After the night he died
I wept my tears until they dried
But the pain stayed the same
I didn't want him to die all in vain
I made a promise to revenge his soul in time
I'll make them bleed down at my feet

history: Sokaris currently has no idea about his destiny: while he used to know about the details of what his fate was and the battle he was involved in, he was involved in a car accident two years ago that nearly killed him. Upon opening his eyes for the first time in the hospital, he had no memories left. While he's managed to reconstruct a good deal of his life, with the help of longtime boyfriend, Aidan Carcien, who he currently lives with (after leaving home to attend university, he moved in with him), he had never told Aidan his secret: that part of his life, even though it has only barely begun, is hidden from him. Currently, he attends classes at the University of Sydney...in between episodes of "sickness".

However, Sokaris has begun to hear voices in his head, that whisper to him to remember, and to become what he was born to be, whispering fragments of details that sound so familiar. Even though Aidan is worried that Sokaris is either going just a little nutty (alright, maybe more nutty then he already was), Sokaris himself (when it's not a bad day, when the voices don't sing so loud that he can barely focus: on very bad days, he can do very little, preferring to spend his days curled up in the windowseat listening to the voices sing in his head) believes that maybe, maybe, this means something. And that maybe, maybe, maybe, whatever is contained in those fragments is the key to finding the sense of purpose he lacks, to finding a missing part of him, but he doesn't have. Without telling Aidan, he seeks to find the answers: so maybe, maybe, he can lay those ghosts to rest, and won't have to hear those voices anymore.

update: Aidan died when the Sydney Observatory was destroyed: Sokaris's mind and soul shattered without the focus of his life to make him complete, and he chose to become an Angel. His reasons are his own: but whatever he does now, it will all be in revenge for the death of the one person who ever loved him without reservation.

personality:Quiet and timid, Sokaris does not deal well with people or with social situations, preferring to remain out of them as much as he can, and if he is forced to be in a social situation, he will remain silent. Alternatively passively yielding and the frigid, remote ice maiden at turns, he is not comfortable with the strong, very strong emotions that bubble beneath the calm, cold facade, and he is definitely not comfortable with people knowing how strongly he can feel. Extremely intelligent, almost to the point of being frighteningly so, Sokaris is a bookworm through and through, preferring the company of books to any person (except Aidan): it will take a great deal to separate him from his books. He has a sarcastic streak, and if anyone sufficiently annoys him, he will use it.

A lost soul, Sokaris doesn't have much sense of purpose in his life: despite the fact he is so intelligent and perfectionistic when it comes to scholastic achievement, he doesn't really have any clue what he wants to do with the rest of his life, and no matter how much someone tries to push him, he fluidly resists, continuing to drift. Almost as if he subconsciously knows there is a purpose waiting for him...he just needs to find it.


appearance: Appearance: Sokaris is very small-standing only 4'9" in his bare feet, a fact which doesn't exactly make him happy-and very slender, about 75 lbs, 85 if you include the ten pounds of hair. He is very beautiful, in a delicate, ethereal fashion, and is unlucky enough to look like a girl, also appearing younger then he really is (somewhere around fifteen or an early sixteen): however, he has a deep, musical baritone voice, which hardly ever changes to show emotion. He usually manages to startle people when he first speaks, between the contrast of his size and looks and his voice. He, because of his size (or lack thereof) is stuck wearing women's clothing, a fact which annoys him greatly: however, he just grits his teeth and buys the most androgynous things he can find. The only piece of clothing he actually likes-besides the jewelry he was wearing when he woke up-a gift from Aidan, though he obviously doesn't remember why or the occasion- silver crescent moon-shaped earrings and a silver crescent moon pendant, as well as a medical alert bracelet (since he's epileptic)-is the white trenchcoat he wears. He has long black hair that falls to his ankles: usually tied back, he often uses it to hide behind, and deep, clear green eyes, slightly almond-shaped.

((So not real, just a roleplay journal. Given life and form by heavensgardener and tortured by his Tzimisce of a creator. His PB is Garnet/Dagger from Final Fantasy IX. Lyrics from Within Temptation, "The Promise"))

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